How i became a person who suddenly believed in GOD..

Till very recently i never thought God really existed. This all, in spite of the fact that in my family everyone were a very devout people. It was very much so I have had my own questions as to why an Omam has to be performed for any auspicious function, like a marriage or an upanayanam. Let alone all the reasons I got, I still get the meaning of what GOD really meant.

All it really meant to me was to be an ideology that one follows rather than something that physically exists. Maybe even today many might feel the same, but its not the same to me any more. The reason for a sudden change in this attitude, came up because of certain happenings in my life.

When I was all alone and no one to be by my side, I really had lost my senses. Life never happened for me. At the brink of going into a depression I for the first time realized what GOD really meant. The very night which had let me into such a situation, I had a dream that just showed me to almost the very precise detail a happening that I thought was just a dream. All that was to happen in a few days time was what really made me change my attitude towards GOD.

That in my dream, I was traveling in a car with my family to an undisclosed place. On the highway NH-45, en route to Trichy from Chennai, I was going along with the usual chatting and talking with my family. Near the town of Tindivanam, the car took a side road which read To Pondicherry(now Puducherry). The road became narrower as it went on and all I could see was lush greenery and smaller villages and stuff that defines India. Next thing that I witnessed was the fact that there was a barricade like thing on the road that we had to negotiate.

Another turn in the route we went in a small road which was not even proper. At the end of the road there was a small structure, which then showed a deity of GOD fully painted and in full glory. At this moment, I did wake up to realize it to be a dream.

Couple of months passed by when none of this things did really affect me and even worse i forgot any of such a thing happening a coupe of weeks later. One fine day when my twelfth exams were finished and results were out and when I was about to leave for NIT, Trichy in a couple of weeks time my family decided that we visit a temple which was stated to be our family deity. So with the full family including my grand parents we booked a cab and started our trip.

To my real surprise, when I asked my parents as to where this place was they answered its in a place named Kiliyanoor. On hearing this I was really taken back, as I had vaguely remembered on seeing a board somewhere of this name. I at that time couldn't relate it to the dream that I had one night, but it was something that I started to ponder upon. On the road I saw the board stating NH-45, and Trichy 300 km. This again made me more speculating on the topic of where it had occurred. What went on later was what I had witnessed during that one night. Even the words that were uttered where exactly the same. But before I could very much realize all this and relate the same, we had reached a police check post which is where the name of the village of Kiliyanoor was flashed in that night's dream.

On reaching the final destination which was our temple, I was really surprised to see the same deity inside the sanctum sanatorium of the temple. Only then did I realize that this was the dream that happened that day and hence made me feel that there was something more than coincidence to this. Thats when I realized that there was something divine to this. The whole thing of divinity made me realize that GOD does exist but not in the form that people thing but as a divine force and as any supernatural force being worshiped as controlling some part of the world or some aspect of life or who is the personification of a force.

Since then I have started believing in that ideology. Thats how i really started believing in GOD.

This place Kiliyanoor is located on the highway from Tindivanam to Puducherry, about half an hour from Tindivanam. It apparently happens to be a place of worship with my family in the past and hence had become the family deity. But after a gap of several years, we found this place and has been visiting it very frequently ever since.

This is something thats been a very personal event in my life. Not only has this been a reason for me to realize GOD, but there have been several such happenings that has made me realize this fact.